Rae Rae Martinez (trinity666) wrote in euphoric_stupor,
Rae Rae Martinez
trinity666
euphoric_stupor

i still cant get over how sleeping still scares me...

So things have calmed down and I am starting to feel normal again... I know what it's like to be sleepy again, but still I think it's more sinister than "ALL BETTER" because all better doesn't exsist. Not where I come from at least. This is somebody's idea of a joke, I'm sure, and tired or not, I'm still afriad to go to sleep. And you'd think it all would get better, but UNFORTUNATELY we cannot help you sir... God, I'm a wreck. Watched Darkness Falls for the first time and I CRIED because "I'M AFRAID OF THE DARK, TOO!" and I am. I mean I don't think you quite GET it... You don't GET it, I can't quite figure out how it is I have been able to SLEEP without thinking about it for the past 19 years of my life. You know even when I was tweeked out I could sleep? "Oh, it's okay, I took a nap!" and I did, it was 18 hours ago, for 2 hours. Not even that anymore. I can't sleep. I'm not really sure what I'm going to do. And it's mind over matter because sleeping pills don't work. Hah. Man I got crossed off THAT list so fast. Shit. Oh well. Oh well, what can I do, right?
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